The Book

I'm wondering more and more if I don't need a Facebook page.

Hm...

Never mind the constant fear no one will friend me. It seems to be the thing to do. I never did jump on the Myspace wagon (and I'm okay with that) but...

Back to the Present

Since I've been revisiting my Dagger boys, I've been glued to my laptop. My housework is suffering. Okay who am I kidding, it suffered before I became re-obsessed with my boys.

I was lying in bed, wondering what the heck I was going to do with one of them when it came to me. Like a brilliant idea always does - just before I fell asleep. I got a few paragraphs into Dex's story (man he's gone through name changes unlike the other three) and came to a grinding halt. I needed to understand his past relationship with the heroine before I could enter the present. Especially since her present was altered dramatically by the past. And so for the past month, that's what I've been doing. Writing their past. I'm almost done and I have to say I'm relieved. I'm ready to actually write them now. I've been wondering for years on what to do with this guy since the Dagger boys arrived in my kitchen. Since I now know...I'm so ready to get to it. To get on with it.

My patience is minimal at best. And because one of my favourite things to do is to find the right song for my stories....here it is. This fits in so many ways for my couple.

Sarah McLachlan ~ I Will Remember You

Puzzle Pieces

When I write, it's usually in order. Sometimes I'll stop to write a quick scene out of order so I don't forget it.

This time around I'm all over the place. Past, present and I have to say it's annoying me. Granted I'd rather hammer out the scene (that will probably change upon entry into the story) then forget it and a lot of the scene bits are from the past but still...

All over the place.

I'm not going to complain though (or at least a lot) as it means I'm writing. And that is always a good thing. Back to my puzzle pieces I go.

Beyond My Limits?

I'm back to dabbling with my oh so bad Dagger Boys and I wonder about the fine line I walk with these boys.

I was writing a scene with Chaz and he's just so...amoral. Writing from his point of view is, well, scary when he thinks things like "He had killed for her. Without remorse. Without hesitation." Truthfully, I think he kinda liked killing the guy. All because said corpse dared to hurt one of his own. He has a weird code of honour, I tell you what.

As I write start first story, there's a bit of hesitation in me because these are not good people. I worry I'm pushing some fine line with this series, and I've always felt that way. The guys are violent. Their pasts are less than legal and my current heroine. I wince at her past and yet if I change it...she's not who she is anymore. And yet I can't make them sweet, good, err....legal people. I can't. Because then Chaz isn't Chaz (oh yeah, I still heart him four years later...he's soooo baaaaaad.) None of the Dagger Boys would be the same. Hell, they wouldn't be the Dagger Boys.

And yet...I worry.

I worry what I write is way beyond dark & twisty. Their world is dangerous, deadly and, uhm most of the time, illegal.

Not that this is stopping me. I've learned to follow where the story goes, to be true to the characters. But man alive...I worry at what emerges from these four guys. I worry I can't do them justice. I worry about these guys. I worry about them a lot.

I do remember when I was told though "Write scared." When you write scared, you write honest. It means your doing something right.

Oh boy. Have I mentioned I'm petrified about this series? And I always have been?? Gads.

rewrites

How can rewriting be this hard?

I'm currently staring at the cursor and I have no idea how to start. Oh sure I have the prologue written but now what?

Aurgh!!!!

This may require a stronger drink than Coke Zero.

Amazon Stinks

There's nothing like waking up from a nap to discover the erotic romance genre has been kicked in the groin.

By none other than Amazon.

Erotic romance authors are having their sales ranks stripped of their sales and kicking said books from their search listing. As one who has two books listed (one I had to pay for for crying out loud) this both alarms me and pisses me off. My sales listings haven't been stripped yet.

Yet.

But I have no doubt it will happen.

God damn it.

I can't say the same for other writers I heart and spend money on.

Other are blogging about this way more effectively than I. Smart Bitches have coined the voluptuous phrase Amazon Rank and Maya Reynolds is always up on the industry.

Apparently this is also hitting the classics (Lady Chatterley's Lover) and authors such as Ellen Degeneres.

What a crock.

Update: According to Maya Reynold's latest post, the little people with the credit card are being heard.

Sweet Tweet

Because I'm not procrastinating enough on my own...

I'm now on Twitter.